here comes the sun

My mom always sings Here Comes the Sun when she has a good day skiing. It never gets old and is always the perfect harmony for her when great turns under a blue sky make her giddy.

You know that giddiness that pumps adrenaline into every cell of your person making you feel light as air and aware of every beautiful thing in this world.

I feel that right now. And you know, I know it could all change because, well, life is a constant state of evolution. But right NOW I am light as air and aware of every beautiful thing in this world.

We had an excellent day. Yes, we are still in the intensive care unit. BUT my Ruby is rallying. Down on oxygen and all full of spunk and vigor. She gained ounces and is finally above her birth weight. Andy and I gave her a little sponge bath and she loved it. And, the best part just happened two hours ago. I nursed her. She’s still on a feeding tube and it was all closely monitored but as soon as I cradled my wired and tubed girl to my chest, she went for the nipple with uninhibited moxie. Life. And in those 15 minutes, my brain and my heart let go of some of the terror it had been holding onto.

My mom was by my side and I felt secure. Light as air and aware of every beautiful thing in this world.

Here comes the sun, do do do do
Here comes the sun, and I say
It’s all right

Little darling
It’s been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling
It feels like years since it’s been here

Here comes the sun, do do do do
Here comes the sun, and I say
It’s all right

Little darling
The smiles returning to the faces
Little darling
It seems like years since it’s been here

Here comes the sun, do do do do
Here comes the sun, and I say
It’s all right

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes

Little darling
I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling
It seems like years since it’s been clear

Here comes the sun, do do do do
Here comes the sun, and I say
It’s all right
Here comes the sun, do do do do
Here comes the sun
It’s all right
It’s all right

51 Responses to here comes the sun

  1. Keep on keepin’ on Ruby!!! Thinking good thoughts : )

  2. anne c says:

    hooray! Corner turned! I was at a Christmas party tonight; saw many people I hadn’t connected with in ages. Yet the first thing one person said was, “How’s your friend?” She’d read my prayer request on fbk, and has since come over here to read up herself. So, in Minnesota, complete strangers are pulling for you. And in lots of other corners of the world, too, I bet.
    Love you all!

  3. Anonymous says:

    Put on those shades, baby, and let her SHINE!!!!

    love love love

  4. Ann says:

    Wow! So many prayers have been answered! I can’t wait to see this child healthy and happy on the pages of your blog. Thank you for all the updates! I don’t know how you do it.

  5. Anonymous says:

    Your blog and Ruby’s moxie are making a whole lot of people see the sunshine and smile – even late at night. Love…Cousin Karen

  6. TRB Holt says:

    I will sleep, holding you and Ruby close….and with a smile on my face!…good night sweet Nici….I love you with all of my heart.

    xo, Mom

    ps…”Here Comes the Sun” will have an added, remarkable meaning now.

  7. Janine Evans says:

    I had to check in one last time before heading to bed tonight and I’m so glad I did!
    Wonderful, wonderful!
    Thank you, as always, for sharing. You remain in my thoughts.
    RUBY – you’re a champ!
    Much love from CA.

  8. paige says:

    Yay! You all have been the topic of many conversations in California too.

    We are all a little brighter now too… but I can only imagine how amazing that moment was for you.

    Moment to moment we go… grateful for each and every one.


  9. Carol says:

    Let the sun shine… may you Ruby grow brighter in spirit and life each day. All the very BEST to you and your family. Carol

  10. Lola Granola says:

    Good job mama! Good job Ruby! Glad to hear you’ve had some sunshine after all that rain. Here’s to a baby girl well and a family back at home soon!!

  11. Malissa says:

    Good news! I hope you get to take her home soon. I can already see happy, vivid posts from your blog involving your beautiful girls. Soon…soon! Yippee for breast feeding. :)

  12. Lisa Hensley says:

    Phew! I am so relieved for you! You and little Ruby were in my thoughts as I snuggled the first of my boys to wake up this morning. I’m so glad for you that you get to do the same.

    Congratulations, and thanks for sharing your amazing ability to appreciate the good even in the midst of a whole lot of bad.

    Tell Ruby that lots and lots of people are breathing easier, right along with her.

  13. barbaras says:

    It’s a rainy day in Georgia, but I’m singing right along with you.. GREAT!!

  14. I have always loved that song. Here’s an idea for you! Go online and get that song as a ringtone for your cell. I tried to insert the link here, but it wouldn’t insert for some reason.

    Anyway, I have the piano music, so I think I will go play the song right now!

    You are a little trooper, Ruby…along with your mommy and daddy. Keep on nursing! I will keep on singing and playing!

  15. Katie says:

    This is the best news! Tears of happiness here….xoxo. Go Ruby~little miss sunshine, Go!

  16. Jean says:

    God, what week. It feels like forever. Hallelujah, here comes the sun.

  17. Catherine says:

    Yeah! Beautiful sun! We are so happy for your sweet family! We’re singing with you!

  18. Dakota says:

    Yay! Let’s go Ruby! Sunshine coming your way…

  19. Sage says:

    Great news Nici! I am so thankful for your moments of sunshine… xox to you all!

  20. Dara says:

    Yes! Life…the power of love and prayer :) All good and happiness to you and the family!

  21. Jess says:

    Ben and I are so happy for you and your family right now. I am a total lurker but we did meet once at the U gallery. Our little dude spent 6 weeks in the NICU after being born too early and I can remember the unabated joy of a really good day. Thank you for sharing and we are thinking of you and Ruby and hoping for more good news!

  22. Penne says:

    Yeah! With tears in my eyes and joy in my heart that Ms Ruby had turned the corner and is healing so she can go home with you! Yeah Sunshine!
    Love to you all..
    Aunt Penne and Uncle Hal

  23. karen says:

    How exciting to read the first four words of your blog this morning!! Ruby is a special little girl. Hold her tight! Best wishes for continued good health!!

  24. Crystal says:

    HOORAY Ruby! Your a spunky array of Sunshine! Keep up the fight girly. I can’t wait to hear your momma brag about you on her blog. 😉

  25. Tammy B says:

    So happy this morning to hear your news! Relieved that the sun is shining for you. Hoping you are home soon…

  26. Ellie says:

    Tears have come to my eyes each time I’ve opened your blog since you began this ordeal…this morning I’m so glad to have them be tears of relief and joy for all of you! The sun is actually breaking through the white sky and I can see some blue up above all this beautiful new snow down in the ‘root! Sending sweet easy breaths down the valley to miss Ruby, tough-girl-extraordinare!

  27. Pam says:

    I say it’s MORE than alright, little darlins…

  28. Nina Alviar says:

    Did you hear the collective exhalation from all of us today as we let go of the breath we were holding? Ahhhhh.

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  30. Katie K says:

    I’ve been reading your blog for a couple months now and i just wanted to say how glad i am that ruby is getting better. GO GIRL GO!

  31. *Wesley* says:

    That is great news! Keep fighting Ruby!

  32. Aunt Deb says:

    A lot of people at church this morning were asking us about Ruby since she is in the bulletin, and your Uncle Skip got up and gave an oral report on the situation. With Grandma Joan living here and Grandma Terri having lived here, there are a lot of connections to you and yours in this small town. We are all so relieved that things are getting better. It has been a week, but it seems like a longer time than that- esp for you guys I am sure. Love you lots…Aunt Deb

  33. Kelly says:

    tears rolling down my face…

  34. Anonymous says:

    So Happy to see this! The goosebumps as I read todays update and imagine you finally nursing her again. This is an amazing process that has occured. I have joined hundreds of other people all across the country it seems in praying for your new baby girl. The power of all that love directed to one little spot in that big hospital is awesome! A concentrated beam of hope and healing for a little girl we have never met but care deeply about.I hope it has given Ruby that little extra boost to fight that much harder. I am overjoyed with her progress and with this process that brings all of us a bit closer together.
    Bravo Ruby!

  35. Anonymous says:

    ahh. one of our wedding songs… and all four of you were there. i love that this song has another important meaning…. again!! Love you, Meg

  36. Deb says:

    Oh so good to hear this!! Hopefully your next post will be she’s out of intensive care or that you’re going home.
    Go Ruby!

  37. Skip BRATTON says:

    What a difference a day can make. Can’t wait for even better news tomorrow.

  38. Marty says:

    Oh, I have tears in my eyes! Praise God she is getting better! I will continue to pray for full robust health for Ruby.


  39. Goosebumps! Great post. Still sending healing peaceful thoughts your way. Hang in!

  40. Anonymous says:

    Yay Ruby! I fall asleep each night and wake each morning wondering how she, and you three are all doing. I am so glad to hear such good news! It’s easy sailing from here, Mama. Once she got that milk in her and felt that love radiating from your mama heart, she will want to keep coming back for more! We will continue to send your family love and healing prayers each day until she gets to be home with her big sis. you are doing a great job.
    Love, Amy Taj and Caleb

  41. Anonymous says:

    My husband plays “Here Comes the Sun” for me every year on the winter solstice…to remind me that the days will start getting longer and the sun I NEED will be around soon. It will forever have more meaning to me now.

  42. j.j. says:

    So, so, SO glad to hear…love ya lots~ jj

  43. Daria says:

    Hooray!!!! Keep up the great job!

  44. Wendy says:

    So glad to hear she’s doing well!

    And my mom used to sing “Oh what a beautiful morning” every day as she opened my shades. Funny how mom songs can feel so good to hear.

    You guys will be in my thoughts.

  45. Montana4me says:

    I didn’t know I was holding my breath for you until I read those first few lines of your post…and I exhaled. Yay! So glad to hear things are looking up. Sending warm wishes your way and may the sun keep shining!

  46. Lena says:

    Hi Nici and Holt Family,

    Like a few others, I’m a longtime lurker/reader of your blog. I just wanted to write and say I am thrilled that you had a sunny day.
    I’ve been rooting for you from down in SC, sending good thoughts, my own kind of prayers. You are such an inspiration to me in so many ways. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and your words with us.


  47. Anonymous says:

    Ahh, this is music.. think of all of us singing it to you. Sing that babe home!

    With love,
    Sarah (bee house hives)