Oh, as summer’s tight curls loosen and tumble into autumn. Honestly I adore fall just as much as summer. Here in Missoula we have air as crisp as a perfectly ripe pink lady apple and sky as blue as my Ruby’s eyes. Things are twitching toward fall around here. It’s still completely summer but the crispness and the blueness are whispering hello, we just have to hop over a few mountain passes, fill up in Rocker and we’ll be there by supper.
I notice I am insanely sentimental about time passing this particular season. My nine-month old is growing like my pumpkin vines. My two and a half year-old (who is really closer to three but HELL that seems crazy) carries on conversations that would bring an entire patch of perky sunflowers to their knees.
There’s just so much change. And while I can’t wait for the next thing, I can’t stand moving on. No fair, right? All I can do is love the shit out of where I am at.
Time, relationships, work, exploration, food, compassion, sleep, love. The stuff we all write about, think about, talk about, aspire to. How do I make sure I am making the right choices? That I am on the path that can bring the most good to the world and the future generation I have chosen to participate in? Oh I can get in a spin wondering these things.
But then.
Then I have moments when I am just a human on the planet, loving and living, when life is concentrated, a divine combination of sweet and savory. I want another bite and I understand there are so many ways to make a difference. This often happens at the end of the day, when Beauty puts on her best heels and struts.
Read more about all this love and chaos in this week’s mama digs, I love the whole crazy thing.
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Your two little girls are the sweetest things! I love their little bonnets!
Oh my gosh…I love those bonnets. They’re so sweet. I also love the expression on both the girls’ faces too, Margot’s in particular – the big, honest, compassionate eyes, dark and depthless, full of questions but seeming to have some knowledge already of the answers. Ruby is the perfect compliment, big blues sparkling with endless observation and exploration.
You take some beautiful pictures of them. I can’t imagine how thick your photo albums are or would be if you printed all of these out!
This one made me teary…….
This made me teary, too!! You are an awesome writer, Nici! btw, I LOVE LOVE LOVE the Sodastream I won from your blog! Thank you again, Nici and Sodastream!!
They ALL make me teary! This was a short and very sweet way to start my day! Thank you….xoxo Mom/Gram
How I can relate! I’ve been stuck on these thoughts too. Holding on tightly to these sweet beautiful children, holding on to life because it feels so incredibly lovely and precious right now. Don’t even get me started about holding on to summer!
But then I realize what a gift this all is. What a story! And ofr the story to unfold I can’t hold on too tightly. I want to read more about my life and family and what happens with us as the seasons change, my life seasons, too. I love reading friends’ stories. It helps to keep me centered and reminds me that we all have a story; a beautiful heart-stretching story to live.
xoxo
man oh man is that a beautifully story. that its true and real… even better.
Oh how I miss those innocent days! Beautifully written and wonderfully wise.
Thank you!
Lovely chaos! (Not clearing too many paper clips out of that child’s mouth, I hope 🙂
,,,i love the “tight” hold margot has on her baby sister, so so sweet,,,thank you for the “hump-day nuggets” a day early,,,(smile)
From where I sit, your priorities are all in the right place. More so than anyone I know. And those girls and the world will be all the better for it.
And YAY for Alice helping you clean up 🙂
Simply beautiful.
Nici, I read your blog and this is the first time I’m commenting. The paragraph about the love on Margot’s face brought tears to my eyes. I never knew such love existed until I had my little one…It’s amazing that this feeling exists, isn’t it? Lovely, lovely.
Thank you for another delightful read. I especially liked the moon eyes. What fortunate girls to have a mama who sees them this way and give time to watch them falling asleep.
changing sheets is overrated.
i so relate to this post right now!!
loved reading your version while in the glow of the post-bedtime hours. xo
hi there.
ah,the future is so exciting, so much hope, and promise… but it means nothing without the steps to get there. these moments, yep.
Love reading your sweet posts! I wanted to let you know that I looked up your peach butter recipe and under the comments there are some anonymous ad comments.
Amen sister!
Beautiful and sweet
Just love Mama Digs! Every time I read one, I can’t wait for the next! Beautiful writing!
You are supposed to change sheets? Oh hell.
Oh, Nici! Standing ovation. I loved every word. You had me at “choreographed dance on a craggy staircase ” and then it just kept getting better. I love you my friend and I love your words! xoxo
ruby looks so amazingly sunny and healthy. how totally awesome!
Hello, just wanted to say, I loved this article. It was funny. Keep on posting!