I felt blah yesterday morning. A little blue, a little overwhelmed. The girls went to gymnastics for the day and I felt this urgency to get stuff done, to make that rare day all to myself count. It didn’t go down the way I’d imagined. I felt unfocused, unproductive and frustrated.
So I hopped on facebook. Or, as my friend calls it, timesuck. The first item in my feed made me click and I was so glad I did. It was an essay by Glennon Melton from Momastery. I closed my laptop and snuggled with my cat. I went for a run.
On my run I thought about:
1. I have so few days without my kids and when they happen I feel some guilt and I feel tremendous pressure to earn income, weed the garden, get exercise and end the day renewed, bright and showered.
2. That pressure is annoying.
3. I love running so much.
I picked my daughters up from gymnastics and we had a hot date with Costco. I felt good. Great, clear. I had stomped my funk into the ground on my run. I was really happy to see Margot and Ruby.
Our Costco visit was spectacular. Seriously. Every person we encountered was joyful and kind. Short of heel clicks and synchronized song, it was like we were in Brigadoon. There was the lady standing next to the tank top table who shyly, sweetly asked me to try on clothes over my clothes so she could decide on her size. There was the man who made jokes with my kids about peanut butter pretzels and soy milk. There was the woman who ushered her six small children up and down aisles with grace. There was the dried cherry sample dude who winked at me. The checkout guy asked me how my day was and he meant it. He then gave me a high five.
I remember reading a bit years ago about office dynamics. The author suggested open spaces and lots of collaboration because people operate like the molecular collision theory. When molecules collide, there is a reaction. Things bond, things bust apart. Energy is created. New form, new potential. All the time, just from one little thing bouncing off another little thing. It isn’t specific to offices; this happens at your mailbox, on a run, around your dinner table, on your facebook page and at Costco. What awesome opportunity. Who will we collide with today? What energy will we create?